Mary Knight’s Testimony

Mary Knight CASM member since 1994

My Life Before Christ

First and foremost, I would like to share with you how Jesus Christ transformed my life. Initially, I would like to share with you what my life was like prior to my knowing Christ as my Lord and Savior. Then, I would like to share with you how I came to know Christ. Lastly, I would like to share with you what my life has been like since I came to know Christ as my personal Lord and Savior.

My life prior to knowing Christ as my personal Lord and Savior was one which may be described in two ways, namely rebellion and ignorance. My rebellion was primarily shown in my attitude towards any form of authority. A case in point, whether it was my parents, teachers, or an employer who was attempting to provide me with sound advice or constructive feedback, I believed I had the final word as to the decisions I made concerning me. Overall, I believed that I was the captain of my own fate and I refused to relinquish that conviction.

However, the Scripture says my rebellion was really towards God (1 Samuel 15:23). In other words, my insubordination and indifference towards authority was a form of idolatry or self-worship. Of course, I was totally ignorant to this fact.

With respect to ignorance, I made a conscious decision to remain in the dark about what God required due to my believing that would absolve me of any personal accountability. Furthermore, I was not cognizant of what the Bible says concerning what it means to have a personal saving relationship with Jesus Christ. Mistakenly I believed that, by my being a good person, I would ultimately be accepted by God. Although, unbeknownst to me was the revelation of God in Ephesians 2:8-9, which says “For by grace you have been saved through faith; and that not of yourselves, it is the gift of God; not as a result of works, so that no one may boast.”

In light of what I have shared thus far, it should be evident that my life prior to my knowing Christ as my personal Lord and Savior was one marked by an attitude of self-centered rebellion and self-motivated ignorance.

 

How Christ Saved Me

At this point, I would like to share with you how I came to know Christ as my personal Lord and Savior. In reflecting upon my life prior to my meeting Marvin, who later became my spouse, I am unable to recollect anyone clearly sharing the Gospel of Christ with me. With that being said, it was Marvin who approached me and in so doing, he began to share openly with me through the Word of God what it means to enter into a personal relationship with Christ.

Prior to my doing so, I felt an overwhelming sense of guilt about the sin that I had committed against God, which resulted in my believing that I would not be forgiven by God even if I confessed that sin to Him. It was at this point that Marvin shared with me, “for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God” (Romans 3:23). He further reinforced this truth by sharing “that if you confess with your mouth Jesus as Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, you will be saved; for with the heart a person believes, resulting in righteousness, and with the mouth he confesses, resulting in salvation” (Romans 10:9-10). It should be noted that Marvin walked me through the entire Roman road, which consists of various Scriptures derived from the Book of Romans. Eventually this resulted in my confessing and repenting of that sin and subsequently praying to receive Christ as my personal Lord and Savior. In other words, I placed my faith in Christ alone and thus I was given the right to become a child of God (John 1:12).

 

His Life in Me Since

What my life has been like since I came to know Christ as my personal Lord and Savior is the last aspect of my testimony that I would like to share with you. In so doing, I will attempt to paint a picture of my life as it relates to my being truly born again as opposed to my merely adopting various religious traits so as to appear as though I had been born again as a genuine believer in Christ. Since I came to know Christ as my personal Lord and Savior, my life—with regard to my perspectives, emotions, desires, affections, goals, habits, and hopes—has been deeply impacted as a result of my embracing saving faith (Ephesians 4:20-32). For instance, prior to my knowing Christ, my perspective concerning a lack of forgiveness towards others would have been fairly evident in that one of the ways in which I would have “forgiven” would have been to withhold any sort of affections in an attempt to convey to the other person that I was upset and or disappointed in him or her. However, upon my knowing Christ, my perspective has changed in that I no longer hold to the view that one needs to ask for forgiveness prior to my forgiving. I have since adopted the biblical view found in part in Romans 12:9, which states, “Let love be without hypocrisy…” coupled with verse 14 of Romans 12, “Bless those who persecute you; bless and do not curse,” as well as in Romans 12:17-21 which says in paraphrasing that I am to be at peace with all men while still affording the Lord with His authority to exercise His wrath upon them. Ultimately, my life since Christ has been one whereby I have become a new creature in Christ (2 Corinthians 5:17). This, too, is apparent in my life, for as I previously mentioned, my desires and habits have changed. Prior to knowing Christ, it was my desire to please others, whereas now my sole desire is to ensure that I am well-pleasing to the Lord while simultaneously expressing gratitude to Him for my salvation on a daily basis. I am now cognizant of the fact that Salvation is found only in the Lord and that I must at all costs rely solely upon the Holy Spirit’s work in me moment by moment so that I may live a holy yet glorifying life unto the Lord.

Thank you for affording me with an opportunity to share my testimony with you. Now, will you allow the Holy Spirit to speak to your heart and accept His invitation in embarking upon this journey in becoming a true follower of Jesus Christ?